I’m sitting at my desk waiting for USPS to pick up some packages I’ve sold, so I figured I’d update. Life is still hard. I still have no interest or motivation to do anything. I will say that I think the antidepressants help level me a little, but I still feel exactly the same. It’s disappointing. Not the pills. I didn’t expect anything there. It’s disappointing to feel like I won’t ever be happy again. Time doesn’t heal everything. Time just changes the way things feel. Anywayyyyy. I’ve all but abandoned my BuJo. October wasn’t productive at all, and I think it’s because I didn’t have the bullet journal to keep me accountable. Hopefully I can get back on it for November. I was hoping to have some enthusiasm about creating art by now, but it hasn’t happened. In fact, I’ve started selling a lot of my new art supplies on Mercari because I don’t think I’ll ever feel motivated again. I’ve literally sold 4 of my art journals & I have 6 others listed. I feel guilty having so much & doing nothing with it. I don’t think more than 5 people even visit this site anymore, but maybe I’ll have a giveaway on here. Well, I’m gonna go. I’ve been trying to go through my house & get rid of 80% of my things. I’ve sold about 50 new hair & beauty products lately (mostly Shea Moisture), and I still have a box left. Let’s not even talk about how many art & crafts supplies, journals & monkeys I need to get rid of. It’s ridiculous!!
If you saw my last post, you probably saw that I was going to use a big black sketch book as my new bullet journal. Boy was that a mistake! After about 10 failed attempts at drawing lines and creating boxes (with a ruler), I realized why everyone chooses to use a dotted or grid journal. Lol. With that said, I hit Amazon and decided to purchase a dotted journal. I considered buying a Leuchtturm1917 Hardcover Journal, which nearly everyone uses, but I wasn’t sure if I wanted to pay $20 for a book I would probably abandon in a few days. I added about 5 different journals to my cart, but in the end I decided to purchase the “UNNI Classic Dotted Notebook.” I chose this journal because it had almost everything in common with the Leuchtturm1917, at nearly half the price ($10.95). From what I can tell, the only thing the Leuchtturm1917 has that this journal doesn’t, is a dedicated Index section and numbered pages. There is also only 1 bookmark ribbon instead of 2. Those things weren’t a deal breaker for me because I actually like being able to determine how many pages I dedicate to my Index section, and I can just number the pages as I work on them, so that’s no big deal.
I’ve decided to drink the water…. This weekend I bought a bunch of stuff to start on my bullet journal for August, etc. If IOP taught me one thing, it’s the importance of not only setting & keeping (obtainable) goals, but also tracking them. When I was in IOP I had to keep a goal sheet as well as daily functioning logs to show them & myself the progress I was making. Tracking those things daily really motivated me to keep on track, plus it showed me in black & white what I needed to work on. I’m terrible at keeping regular journals & art journals, but I’m hoping I can stick with this. Below are *some* of the supplies I plan to use. More details later…. possibly.
I’m so geeked!!! I finally found a really great way to store my paints in my art room. This little baby right here actually holds 81 bottles and it doesn’t take up much space at all. Of course it isn’t enough to hold all my paints, but it’s definitely a huge help. I probably need to declutter a lot of things anyway, so I’m more than content. Once I complete my art room, hopefully I’ll feel more inspired and creative. I’ll post an update of my paint storage once it’s decorated. I have sooo many ideas. :D
I’ve been working on getting my art room together, and one thing I’ve had a hard time with is coming up with a perfect storage solution for all of my craft paints. As you can see below, I have about 100 little bottles of paint and no place to store them. Although I have them in a box right now I’d prefer something more attractive. I’m not too worried about the little canisters of paint because those are easy to store. I’ve seen people with wall storage, but 100 bottles can get quite heavy and I don’t feel confident storing them that way. I’m sure I’ll come up with something, and when I do I’ll be sure to share!